Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Di naisakatuparan

Ang mga bagong plinano ko ay hindi naisakatuparan. Muntik na, kaso hindi.

Malaki ang kinalaman dito ay katamaran. Nakakatamad sumubok ng bago kung ang luma ay gumagana pa.

Walang masyadong nakikitang magandang hinaharap. Marahil dahil hindi marunong magplano.

Marahil dahil din sa takot kaya hindi na umusad ang plano. May malaking risk dahil kulang sa karanasan/kaalaman tungkol sa bago.

Kulang din ng suporta. sa mga ganitong bagay, hindi pwedeng ako lang ang gagawa. Kung walang ibang gagawa, wag na lang.

Para sa ang isang tao ay sumubok sa isang bagong bagay, kailangan yung mapapala nya ay higit sa gagastusin nya.

Sino ang sisipagin kung wala namang nakikitang panganib sa kinagawiang sistema? Paano ka magbabago kung wala ka masyadong mapapala kung nagbago ka? Bakit ka magbabago kung gugugol ka ng malaking oras at yaman para sa kaunting kikitain na hindi pa tiyak? Tama ba ang kondisyon mo para magbago?

Hindi ka pwedeng magbago dahil ginusto mo lang.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Pagsasarili

Hindi ko tinuloy ang plano ko kumuha ng mentor.

Bakit?

1. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang maitutulong nya gayong di nya pa natatahak ang gusto kong tahakin.

2. Wala pa talaga akong problema na naiisip na di ko kayang sagutin.

3. Hindi na muna ako natatakot magkamali. Maliit pa lang ang aking taya.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Paghahandog

Noong unang panahon, ang sinumang lumapit sa hari/reyna para humingi ng pabor ay naghahandog. Sa ngayon, bribery na ang tawag doon.

Pero isa pa din itong mahusay na paraan para makuha ang pabor ng iba. Isa sa mga motivational na tanong ng mga tao ay "What's in it for me?" Kung masasagot mo yun ng maayos, maaring mapagbigyan ang hinihingi mo.

Yung iba, tulad ng gusto kong maging mentor, hindi komportable sa mga deretsahang quid pro quo na usapan o yung tunog business transaction kaya dapat sa usapan hindi halatang may transaksyon na nagaganap. Suave lang dapat. Parang usapang magkaibigan.

Nakaisip na ako ng bagay na maihahandog. Kaso may problema. Hiningi na nya dati yun kaso sabi ko wala ako kahit meron.

Isip. Isip.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Panimulang Muli

Huminto ako sa pagba-blog dati dahil nagkaroon ako ng hindi pangangailangang gawin ito.

Kinailangan kong magblog dati para magkapag-isip. Ang pagbablog sa akin ay pag-iisip, mabuti man o masama. May mga isyu ako dati na dapat pagtuunan ng pansin, kahit pahapyaw na pansin, o palihim. Nang masagot ang mga tanong sa aking isip, nang ako ay maliwanagan, minabuti kong manahimik at namnamin ang tinamasang kasiyahan.

Ngunit minsan darating ang mga tanong na tulad ng, "Hanggang dyan lang ba ang kasiyahan mo? Alam mo ba na pwede ka pang sumaya?"

Alam ko pwede pa akong maging masmasaya. May naglalarong mga larawan sa isip ko. Hindi ko lang alam kung paano sila ikakatuparan.

-o-0-o-

May nakapagsabi sa akin na kailangan ko ng mentor.

May napili akong mentor kaso di nya alam na gagawin ko syang mentor. Hindi ko din alam kung magiging mabuting mentor sya para sa akin. Isang paraan lang para malaman: subukan. Bago ang lahat, kailangan ko muna maging maamo para makapagpaamo ng mentor.

Tingnan natin.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Kung Bakit Umaalis

Keeping Things Whole

In a field
I am the absence
of field.
This is
always the case.
Wherever I am
I am what is missing.

When I walk
I part the air
and always
the air moves in
to fill the spaces
where my body's been.

We all have reasons
for moving.
I move
to keep things whole.

-- Mark Strand

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Mall Hungry


The Globe
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Never go to the Mall of Asia during lunchtime on a weekend with an empty stomach. You could die of starvation!

Good thing there's this fast food hidden from view. The food isn't that good but it sure kept gastric holes away.

To Kalayaan


Kalayaan Ave.
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Take the long road called Personal Freedom Avenue. Don’t ever turn to Discrimination Street and Self-Limitation Avenue. You may take the short cut using Highway Self-improvement. If you get lost, you may ask the people to direct you to Cooperation Central. People there can direct you back on track. Prepare for the checkpoint nearing Kalayaan Avenue. Contrabands like unreasonably low self-expectations are required to be disposed of.

Have a safe trip to Kalayaan and I hope you stay.

Friday, June 09, 2006

Hands


Hand
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
I know what hands are for and I'd like to help myself.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Journey


Directions
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Would you go ahead when you know it would not lead you where exactly you want to be?

First answer the question where exactly you wanna be.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Music


Ratsky
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
It's a pic taken last Friday. Although the main act is U-turn, I decided to post the pic of Six Cycle Mind instead. I like them better, that's why. Hmmm...it's the second picture of that band I posted in here. No, they're not my favorite band. They're the only band I have pictures of.

I promised Kat to answer a tag once I get an appropriate photo. This one seemed appropriate enough.

The rules: List seven songs you're into right now. No matter the genre, whether [or not] they have words, or even if they're any good, they must be songs you're really enjoying right now.

1. Drive by Incubus
2. Slow Down by Natalie Imbruglia
3. Better Man by Robbie Williams
4. Sunscreen by Baz Luhrman
5. Humanda Ka by Sandwich
6. Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by Jack Johnson
7. Another Me by Sister Hazel

Hey, feel free to be tagged!

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Masterpiece


Rice Terraces
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Some people carve wood, others stones. The Igorots carved stretches of mountains.

Pinoys shouldn't only be proud of their beaches. Try visiting the

The Rice Terraces - an Igorot masterpiece!

(Submitted to PhotoFriday.com:Masterpiece)

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Truth


Ano 'to?
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Sometimes you have to plant seeds of deception to get to what's real. Most of the time these seeds just bear the UGLY truth.

If you can't deal with it, don't try to find out. There are reasons why they are kept hidden.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Tag-ulan


Dark Clouds
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Papatak. Tutulo. Aagos. Babaha.

Maging handa!

Nasaan na ang panyo't payong?

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Eyeball


Eyes of Stone
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Concert for a Cause
Featuring U-turn (plus other bands)
19May2006 7:30pm
Ratsky's Tomas Morato
Ticket Price: P250

For the benefit of
Golden Acres
Home for The Aged
Brgy. Sto Nino, Quezon City.

I'll be there.

I'm helping a friend promote this event for a good cause. If you're interested to go, we might as well meet up, right?

Monday, April 24, 2006

Sidetracked


Foggy
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
(19May2005 15:38:29)

Sometimes on the way to a dream, you get lost and find a better one. Sometimes you just get lost.

(repost from Cube Blog)

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Omen


Paru-paro
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
There's a belief that a black butterfly entering a house is an omen for a death in the family. I wasn't aware of this until I saw the trailer for the movie "Pamahiin".

I don't want to believe it.

Oh, in case I just stopped blogging, blame that butterfly.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

100 Plus


Islands
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Did you know that there are over a hundred islands in the so called Hundred Islands?

Did you know that I have over a hundred unread mails in my office inbox when I got back from vacation?

Argh!

Friday, March 31, 2006

White


White
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
White is not a mere absence of color; it is a shining and affirmative thing, as fierce as red, as definite as black. God paints in many colors; but He never paints so gorgeously, I had almost said so gaudily, as when He paints in white.

-Gilbert K. Chesterton

(submitted to PhotoFriday:Smooth.)

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Jealousy


Jealousy
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Don’t let her refreshing green eyes fool you. It’s not the freakish limb that makes her a monster. It’s what she did to her twin sister. Jealousy can literally drive you mad with just a touch of her reptilian hand. See her sister at ward four in the Mental Institute for proof. The sister is lucky considering what she did to others. Jealousy can suck the life out of you with a kiss. Ever wondered what happened to her boyfriend? Now you have an idea.

(I kinda like creating comic book characters. I remember creating some when I was younger. This one I did for Illustration Friday:Monster.)

Friday, March 24, 2006

Bright Lights


Lights
Originally uploaded by C Saw.
Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
Who will save me from all I’m up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something that’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you
You should turn yourself around and come on home


Lyrics from Matchbox Twenty's Bright Lights

I remember a first-and-last date with this song. I was asked what type of music I liked and I mentioned Matchbox Twenty. It was played for me but I didn't get to listen to the music because we had a great talk.

(Submitted to Photo Friday:Technology)